Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Batter Up!




Batter Up!

The tension rises as Dad playfully gives his finest competitive glare from atop the chalked pitcher’s mound.  I center the heavy bat on my shoulder to prepare to let it loose against the ball, hopefully direct hit into the neighbor's yard.  I smile smugly as my father pitches the ball and I watch as my bat connects with it.  Crack.  Off the ball goes, direct drive into midfield.  Dad warns Mom, who stands, unmoving, shaking in fear of my hard hit.
“Karen!  Don’t just stand there,” smiles Dad, hoping the encouragement would help.  Unfortunately not.  Then in laughter, I race around the chalk bases with ease.  Mom scrambles to find the ball, which thankfully disappears into the thick bushes that seem to cushion our field from the unprotected house windows.  As I round second base, my small feet pounding the pavement, Mom makes a sloppy throw to Dad.  He calmly waits for the perfect moment to strike when I round third and make the tense sprint for home base.  Dad used to play this type of baseball when he was younger, although, in those days all he had to hit the ball with was his hand.  He had years of experience and on the other hand, I was a small girl of eight.  With his long legs and speed, tagging me out would be a simple feat.  Although, you can’t get that competitive with your own children.  As I near home plate, Dad makes his move and tries to block my path.  I swerve around him and pass over home plate.  I smile as the thrill of victory seeps into my conscious mind.  Karina expresses her victory thrill.
“We won, Lena!  We Won!”  I remain silent.  Mom smiles at Dad, for they both know he could have easily tagged me out.  My sweet sister embraces me to reward me on my contribution to our victory against the mighty adults.

Mom hollers my name from up the hill by our old house and I am jolted out of my flashback.  My mind returns to the present day.  Now as a teenager, such simple games no longer have a pleasing effect on me, but this memory does.  I look down at where my feet have taken me.  Perhaps another time.  Even though the chalk outlines of the bases have faded, they will always be there in my mind.  I put my arms up behind my head, supporting a bat that is not there.  I follow through with the swing and seem to watch that home run hit fly over into the bushes.

Poem Collection - Some written by me - Some written by others


Poems written by Elena Morey (me):

Tick, Tock
3.

2.

1.

Hurtle to green and blue earth.
Crash landing.
Not broken,

yet.

Downward spiral,
fall into black hole.
Crowd of haters.

Tic.

Plutonium
swirl and swish,
the toxic flammable
crystal blue mouthwash,
ready to light the
wooden dominoes.
“Yes, she said-”

Tic tic.

Clench ground
beneath my
metallic container.
 “-alone-”

Tic tic tic.

Hold back heat waves.
Atoms mixing
and vibrating.
 “-no more-”

Tic tic tic tic.

Wire twirled together
like shoe-lace candy
of blue and red colors.
“-can’t be friends!”

Tic tic tic tic tic.

Ground shake.
Lose control.
 “-go away!”

Tic tic tic tic tic tic.

Signals connect
from HQ.
 “-rumours-”

Tic tic tic tic tic tic tic.

Clack, clack, clack.
vhmmmm.
vhmmmm.
vhmmmm.
World spiraling into darkness.
Heat melting
titanium cage.
 “It’s not them.  It’s you!”

Tic tic tic tic tic tic tic tic.

Smash red button in corner,
shattering glass
case covering it,
marked with yellow zebra lines.
Glass flies through the air,
like tiny bees,
biting into the flesh of the hand that
disturbed the hive.
Eyes tightly closed.
Fists clenched.
Beast becoming...

BOOM.

This poem’s meaning is revolved around pain and self reflection during hard times with friends.  It is about how the person/ bomb cannot take what is going on and just loses it or explodes.  The italics stand for the things that are in real life and the rest is in the extended metaphor about the bomb.  I used a lot of sound devices such as alliteration when I repeated the tic, tic, tic which is also onomatopoeia.  Also, I started in a place where the bomb is rocketed into orbit and I end when the bomb explodes.  My beginning is intriguing because I start with the numbers counting down from 3.  I find that is what brings my reader into the extended metaphor.

Green Leaf in December
What does it mean to be on your own?
To stand,
waiting
for something to happen.
Or is it when no one understands you,
they just can’t get
inside your head.

But maybe it’s when you’re caught,
stuck inside the
never ending
twist and turns of
the maze you built,
from the depth of the dark,
unexplored corners of your
immense mind,
when no one can join you,
when no one
wants to.

What does it mean to be on your own?
To pose,
no one at your side?
Perhaps it is when you are
at a disagreement,
and no one takes
your side.

What does it mean to be on your own?
To hear your own thoughts
bounce around
inside your skull,
while you run from
the large,
rambling,
intimidating factory,
collecting your thoughts like
sheep,
forcing the wool from their backs,
then spitting them out-of-the-way,
letting them run off into
darkness,
back into the maze.

Or maybe to be
driven insane by the
silence,
that irreplaceable essence,
absent forever.

Or maybe it is just
reading this poem to
myself,
unjudged
and
free.

 This poem delivers a deep sense of individuality, not just being alone.  It is almost like a silent battle with being yourself and fitting in but not being happy.  This poem is quite slow and made up of many strong beats, slowing the tempo.  I was inspired by past experiences and my deep feelings.  I do have a high sense of individuality but yet I do know the feelings of being alone.  I guess my message in this poem is about the drawbacks of being an individual.

Laugh On, Even if You are the Only One
These are the birds,
whose sweet voices
have faded.
These are the ants,
who seem too small
for anything.
These are the caged animals,
given up hope of
freedom.

Arise.

These are the eagles,
whose wings have
been clipped.
These are the frogs,
who have forgotten
their spring.
These are the flowers,
whose petals
have been painfully picked.

Arise.

For all who
no longer believe,
those who
can’t go
on,

Arise.

Hope has not abandoned us,
there is
and escape from the
decollate
Island of Misfit Toys,
there is
a life out there
for you.
No matter how long we wait,
how hard we look,
a small crack
will appear
in that
thick
glass
wall,
where we can gaze at
those people,
who think they are
so much better than
us,
from our
silent solitude,
when they can’t seem to
look
back.
When they
don’t
want
to.

Arise.

No longer shall
any of us be summarized,
looked at like aliens in our
own land.
All that
must
be done is to
Arise,
and pull the
outsiders
in,
for no longer will the
Island of Misfit Toys exist
if
we
all

Arise.

 This poem was written after the poem, Green Leaf in December and is about rising up against the ‘status quo’ and finding yourself.  Although, sometimes people don’t like you for who you have chosen to be.  Even though they shun you, you find yourself wanting to stay an individual.  This poem means a lot to me at the moment because Middle school and High school are about finding who you are and about how you are a piece of the world.  Sometimes people don’t understand and can’t except you.  The person in this poem is finding other people like her self and they join together to make an impact.

Poems written by others that I love:

This is Not a Love Poem
This is not a love poem no way
you need big words for that
like “luminous” and “eternity”
you need lots of serious rhyme
or at least iambic pentameter
you need merciless starts
deserts on moonless nights
foamy surf on gusty beaches
you need to get smashed
into such tiny fragments
you can only use the small i
when you write
i love you.

Teenagers
One day they disappear,
into their rooms.
Door and lips shut
and we become strangers
in our own home.

I pace the hall, hear whispers,
a code I knew but cannot remember,
mouthed by mouths I taught to speak.

Years later the door opens.
I see faces I once held,
open as a sunflower in my hands.
I see familiar skin now stretched in long bodies
that move past me
glowing almost like pearls.

By:  Pat Mora

 In Pat Mora’s poem, Teeagers, the poet talk about watching your children grow up.  She brings down the mood by slowing the tempo by using more strong beats and metaphors and similes to deepen the initial meaning.  Also, her poem really connects to me because she explains the process of letting your child go.  I am about to go through this with my parents when I go into High school.
 Mora uses more strong beats then rests because when there are more rests, the poem moves faster and lifts the mood.  Such examples stem from Dr Seuss’ writing.  Slowing the moon is represented in one of Mora’s lines:
    u   /    /  u     u     /  u    /   u     u  /     /        u  u       /
“Years later the door opens.  I see faces I once held,”.
 Mora uses similes and metaphors to connect things to how she feels about the bond with her children.  In this line, glowing almost like pearls.”, she uses a metaphor for she uses ‘like’.  She is referring to her emotions and how proud she is because when someone is proud, they often glow.  Pearls are also a very expensive, valuable, and beautiful things, as a child would be to their parents.  Also, Mora uses a simile here in this line, “see faces I once held,open as a sunflower in my hands.”.
 Finally, and most importantly, Mora’s poem really connects to me through her message.  This poem seems to give me a glimpse of what it to come in my life from the parent’s perspective, when I go to High school.  I find that there is so much truth in the way Mora writes the poem.  The line that really helped me understand my own parents was this one, I pace the hall,  hear whispers, a code I knew but cannot remember,”.  This shows me about the pain and stress parents feel once seeing their children grow up and the big gulp they have to take to let them go at the right age.  I found that  the initial emotion I was left with was awe and pride in who I am going to be.

Poems I Like to Read:

Years of Solitude
To the one who sets a second place
at the table
anyway.

To the one at the back of the
empty bus.

To the ones who name each piece
of stained glass projected on a
white wall.

To anyone convinced that a monologue is
a conversation with
the past.

To the one to who losses with the
deck he marked.

To those who are destined to inherit
the meek,

to us.

By: Dionisio D. Martinez

Tune In or Tune Out!




To:  All Middle School Students
TUNE IN OR TUNE OUT!!!!!
Many people listen to music while doing school work.  It is a proven fact that when we listen to music while studying, we cannot concentrate or learn any better.  First, it is simply distracting because of how catchy the music and tune is.  You start to listen to the song instead of concentrating on your homework.  Secondly, your brain moves to the beat of the song and the tempos make the absorption of the knowledge more difficult.  Next, only one type of music, which is Baroque music can enhance learning.  Although, people claim that music is only a ‘white noise’ in the background, studies have proven that it is only an excuse.
 Studies expose the truth, which is that listening to music while studying is distracting!  One of those studies took place in the University of Wales Institute in Cardiff, UK in 2010.  One of the trials they conducted was looking at the results of having people memorize numeral sequences while listening to music, compared to those in silence.  Almost every time they repeated the experiment, the same results surfaced.  Silence was best compared to the modern day music including lyrics.  Music, especially with lyrics, impairs cognitive abilities, especially short-term memory performance.  Also, another study was done and according to the Stanford University (Professor Clifford Nass) says, “The human brain listens to song lyrics with the same part of the brain that does word processing, which is the same part of the brain that supposedly is being employed for studying.”
 I attended a presentation in May, 2010 at the International School of Zug and Luzern in Switzerland by a teacher and a studies strategies expert, Terry Small.  During the presentation, he explained the three states of mind.  The first is the Alpha mode.  It is when the brain is most open to the flow of knowledge and enables learning.  The second is the daily state of the brain and the third is its activity while we are sleeping.  The Alpha state occurs naturally during the most engaging parts of your homework or studying.  Small asserts that maintaining the Alpha state renders your mind able to absorb knowledge at a rapid rate.  This state occurs naturally when your heart beat is at rest and at a steady beat.  Although, there is another way to jumpstart Alpha mode and learn in a more efficient way.  
Baroque music is a blend to strings and soft wind instruments.  The key soul of the music is that it is between 55 - 70 beats per minute, which sets your brain into the Alpha mode.  It allows you to learn better by increasing your concentration and memory and gives you less stress with an overall uplifted feeling.  Other research and studies have come to the same conclusion that this type of music has awakened the Alpha state faster and maintains it for a longer period of time.  I also have listened to Baroque music while doing my homework and assignments.  It blends every other background noise together and seems to mute them.  The pleasant sounds and waves of sweet music makes me feel satisfied and quite engaged.  Infact, I gave myself quite a scare because while I was doing my social studies family tree assignment, I was enjoying myself!  If Baroque music can uplift you and improve your school work, why do people want to listen to the unearthly pounding and clashing of modern-day music?
 People often say classical and Baroque music are the same. Although, the two are distinctly different from each other but do share some similarities.  For example,  Baroque music came to be in the 1600s and lasted to the 1750s.  Also its tunes are quite dramatic and made up of more melodies.  Classical music, however, dates from 1750s to 1825.  The musical style is balanced and the melodies are organized and structured formally.  Bach wrote many Baroque pieces and Mozart composed more classical music.
 When I ask anyone why they listen to music while doing homework, they tell me that they like it and they can handle the multi-tasking.  Also people think that this depends on your preference for music or silence.
When I took a survey asking how many people listen to music while doing school work, in one of my questions, I asked what kind of music the class listens to.  The most popular answer was Hip Hop.  When I asked them later about which music could worsen school work performance, the most popular answer was Heavy Metal, yet three people do listen to it!  We all enjoy listening to music that keeps us occupied and happy but we need to break out of that and think about what is best for our minds!
 Thankfully Baroque music can be heard and accessed anywhere online.  YouTube holds many pieces from multiple composers such as Bach and Vivaldi.  Do your own experiments, try and listen to your own music and then try with Baroque.  You will find that the outcome will be the same as reflected in the research already collected.  So now I have finished my homework, have you finished yours?
Bibliography
1.  When Doing Work:  Music or No Music?

2.  Does Listening to Music While Doing Homework Help You Concentrate?

3.  Will Backround Music IMprove Your Concentration?

The Not so Great Elena Hope Morey #1 (part 2)

Well, to all who felt some suspension to my previous blog post (as I did.  :D), this post is for you all.  To who ever is wondering, I learned that someone can have a really horrible audition (thanks random stage fright) and still get in because of "her attitude".  XD  To all you folks who want to try out for something or are going for a job interview, remember that your attitude is seemings more important that what you have to offer because people look at who you are rather than what you can do first.  You will get more people to like you in life if you can be nice and have a good, strong attitude.  You can be the best car dealer or artist but if poeple don't your attitude or the way you treat them, they will NOT hire you.  Life looks at how you dealt with all the ups and downs, not what grades you got in school or something.  I think one should live their life looking and focusing on bettering their person, not their skills or their body.  Remember, the physical things are just distractions and an empty shell.  Their pleasures won't last forever but your soul will.
We are this little bug compared to the wide and wondrous world ahead of us.

PS.  photo taken by me.  :P

Sunday, August 25, 2013

The Not so Great Elena Hope Morey #1 (part 1)

When someone or people depend on you... it really means that they think you can do something that you yourself might not realise yet.  For example... I have to memorise something for a Centre Stage production in Singapore.  I have to memorise a whole page and well... I really am struggling.  I should have practiced more but I just didn't have that passion inside myself for it.  Through this, I realised that the people close to you really mean to just help you get through things.  They care about as much as you do and just want to best for you...

You know the old saying, "You don't know how much something means to you until you loose it,"...  Well... that is how I feel right now.  I have not gone and done the auditions yet but... I still feel like I have lost something.  I am still going to give it my best shot until then but I have one day left.  It will certainly not be enough but I know I can try.  I have pressure from school in exams coming up and then other things in my life to worry about.  Then... there is this little monologue.  At first... I though nothing really of it.  I would come up with excuses and just keep procrastinating until today.  My mom was talking to me and telling me that I was going to do it and going to go try out.  All through the process she was telling me I was going to go... as though there was no other option but to go.  Now, she sees that I won't be able to actually memorise it, she tells me that I should not do it.  Only after she said not to... I felt a change in the air.  I felt a shift into something different inside me.  I felt a sense of deep deep sadness and pain in my heart, as though someone I loved passed away.  I felt as though things would never heal.  I felt as though there was something I had but now was gone forever.

As human beings, we never really do realise what we truly care about until it is gone.  I am not trying to give my loving and caring mother a 'bad name' here but she is showing me what I care about. I think she knows that I care very deeply about what she thinks of me and what she expects.  I think all parents feel that their child understands and tried to except their expectation level but parents only really see one side of their child.  It is hard for them to care so much but let go...  A normal child tells their parents only that the feel that they need to know.  For me, that is not the case.  I tell my mother everything.  And I mean EVERYTHING!!!  We are extremely close and we know each other very well.  Although, there are some things, as a normal teen has, that their parents don't know or need to know.  Anyway, my mother and I are very close.  We trust and love each other deeply but, nothing is always perfect.  About 99% of the time, everything almost is.  But, like things like this (miscommunication), something goes slightly wrong.  We don't throw fits or slam doors but I mainly keep the feelings of sadness and loss of hope to myself.  Usually it is fine but most of the time, it needs to come out and in this kind of form of writing.  I trust the readers of my blog and I let them in on things like this.  Things that make us human.  Things that make us all alike in some way.  Feeling defeat and loss of hope is one of them but it does not mean that we should stop caring and trying about something.  Even if someone as close to you as a mother or father is, you should never stop trying.

Today, my amazing mother taught me an important lesson folks.  She taught me, in a strange and unusual way but nonetheless, taught me something VERY important.  No matter what you do, always think about it.  Ask yourself how much it means to you, no matter how small or little it seems, it may be important to you when it is gone.